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I've tried. I've tried really hard to be there for my friends.
The cause seems to have dwindled away, and all I end up doing, is hurting myself.
I get upset on a sub-conscious level and end up not being able to sleep.
I wanted to play Wii-Fit, but was angered for no reason and threw my Wii- remote and broke it into pieces,
then moped and pissy for being an idiot.
I sit here, still upset and unable to sleep. Trying to listen to music to calm down the nerves.
I always want my friends to be happy and have fun. I get around and try to help them out, make things fun for them.
But sometimes, you get excited, and when something you were expecting to happen, doesn't go the way you thoguht it would, it tears you apart. Left with shredded paper, you try to piece ot all back together but can't find all the missing parts, because some blew away with the wind.
The last piece of glass I held on to, has been shattered, and I no longer have the strength to piece it back together.
It is time to move beyond that glass window. To let go and acknowledge that certain things, will forever, remain broken.
Tonight, I will be leaving something behind; and only time will it come back to me.
The restless nights of staying up, in hopes to talk to you, just like you do with him, has taken its toll on me but not because of you alone. So many things, put together that want to happen but cannot happen and will most likely not happen. If it were ever to happen, it would be long time from now.
Emotions fade with time but they only start fading when you tell yourself to let it go.
Your smile will always forever bring me a warm smile, I tried my best to keep you happy, to keep you from having as much fun as you can when we play something but sometimes, when you skip out and turn around without saying a word, it leaves me out in the cold. I try to keep it to myself because all it ever does is make us argue and yell for no reason. It makes me happy when you are having fun but at the same time when things go sour, it feels like there is a wall between us.
I know we all have something to struggle with but I am drawing my line now, I have put myself forward to achieve a better atmosphere for everyone and now it is time to take a step backwards so I myself, can move forward.
Good luck, and god speed.
May we all have the safest journey to our destinations.
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| | Posted 10/26/2009 11:11 PM - 15 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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